will format this correctly later: 1/29/2025: i cant focus on shit temporarily i was able 2 a little bit, i wish the not focusing brought me back some feeling of interest in anything. i can feel a temporary interest but its just filler, i wish when it used 2 make me passionate and consume me. i hope this doesnt sound selfish in anyway but i just cant focus im in class rn and i had been staring at my 1/15th written essay all guuuhhhhhhhhh,,,,

so i just went to working on this instead

thank you maretu for stimulating the cobwebs in my brain